This is going to be very cryptic, I can just tell.
Just got home from improv practice. I love da guyz. Eli Mandel picked and dropped me off, which was awesome. He came up for tea and chips. I feel validated a as a human being again.
And I say again, because I often times do not.
Like when I get no affirmation.
I love it when things fall gently and one and a time, as they have been and I should be happy. I am happy.
But I am also being princessy right now.
Lot's O Facebook. Should be reading Orestes. Don't think I'm gunna. At least I am memorized for everything.
(3 monologues and Holy Ghosts)
LET'S SEE. Can't figure out this guy sitch. It is making me really sad.
I should not feel sad.
I am going to try to feel better.
I have no idea how that is possible.
I think I am a guy's girl.
I think this because I have made no girlfriends at UCSC that I didn't already have or must be by some "This is my girlfriend!" default. Which is fine too.
I am SO glad not to be at Valley anymore.
barf barf barffffshitasssfuckshithole
Okay, but seriously, three cups of tea today? Acceptable? It was raining, come on.
Okay Okay, this is what I really want to say, here it is:
All I want... is requited, open feelings, all the time. I need to know if things are too slow, too fast, too awesome, too terrible. I need to know it all. And if I don't, I will continue to go crazy and call the CVS pharmacy more frequently and the person I care for. I need to call CVS again tomorrow. They never give me what I want.